All I wanted was to get there.
I’d been on the road for ten days, stayed in four different places, constantly moving, always with other people. I had a nine-hour drive home and I just wanted out of my car and space to breathe.
But it wasn’t happening fast enough. On three separate occasions, I was delayed for an hour. By that third time, as I was sitting in stopped traffic on the interstate, with five more hours to go, I had almost hit my limit.
Have you ever wanted something so badly you could scream?
I just wanted stillness. For a girl that loves adventure, I equally love rest. Scratch that. Need rest. And I was craving that pause, that tiny moment to not be moving forward or doing anything besides sitting in the comfort of my home.
I even pulled off about two hours from home because I couldn’t handle driving anymore. Weeks of consecutive late nights and very little down time had made me cranky and I had very little patience.
I couldn't get home fast enough.
But then. As I was in the middle of fighting with my GPS, with under two hours to go, I noticed the sky. The sun was setting and… oh my goodness.
I was no longer racing to get home. I was racing toward that sunset, trying to find a place to pull over and take it in.
I grabbed my camera and jumped out of my car. I had that feeling again. This sense of urgency to create beautiful things, to capture a moment before it’s gone. And that’s something that I’ve been missing for a while.
I leaned back against my car and watched. I tried to sit in that fading sunlight and thank God for giving me such a precious gift.
If I had followed my original schedule, if I had stayed on the track I’d planned when I first set out, I would have missed this moment.
Sometimes we have to ride out some unpleasant seasons or we’ll miss the greatness waiting for us on the other side. And those wrenches in the plan, those things that hold us up and make us want to scream?
They’re trying to get us to slow down, so we don’t speed past the things we are meant to experience.
I asked for stillness and I thought it looked like being out of my car, no longer moving, safely tucked into my couch, hours away at home. And God said, “You want stillness? I’ll give it to you, right where you are. Slow down long enough to see it.”