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I see a lot of photos in a week. One of the biggest tasks in my photography workflow is simply sorting through all the images and choosing the best ones. I shoot a lot. As I click through the photos, there is generally a small amount of time in which each image looks distorted or blurry while it is loading.

At times, my heart just drops, because from what I can tell, the image looks amazing, it's just not clear.

Then, I remember. It's still loading.

Those few seconds pass and the pixels line up as I hoped they would. I finally breathe when that happens.

There are times, though, that the image stays blurry, even after it's finished loading. I kick myself then, because in my adrenaline-laced shooting, I produced a low-quality image. I didn't focus properly or didn't sit still enough, forgot to change a setting or just couldn't see clearly anymore.

These same reactions constantly happen in life, day after day. Sometimes, things don't turn out exactly like I'd hoped or planned. Life gets a little messy and it's solely my fault. My priorities took a wrong shift. I got impatient. I couldn't see what was important anymore. I'm tempted to beat myself up over it.

Some days, we have to accept that we made a bad call, we made a mistake, we ended up with a blurry outcome. And that's okay.

Because the rest of the days we just need to wait. The image isn't clear because it hasn't finished loading. God sees the whole picture, and it's not what we imagine it to be. I don't think the loading image is a snapshot of our life's purpose or a clear map of the paths our lives will take. I think the picture is of us. And if we were to see ourselves as who God is making us into, we'd think there had been a mistake. We'd start to doubt our ability to become that person.

We're works in progress. We're still loading, rendering, becoming the people God intended us to be. In the meantime, let's stop pretending those blurry images don't exist because they're a tad imperfect. Let's be a little more transparent so that God can shine beyond our impurities. Let's believe they are part of a better and beautiful story, where only God can reshape our broken pieces into an image only he can see. When we try hide our brokenness, we rob ourselves of the chance to show the world that God is most often found in the messiest of lives, that He is full of grace, and that He is enough.

"But he said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong." 2 Corinthians 12:9-10

Here's to the blurry ones.

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